Or is it auld year? As 2018 draws to a close, I’ve found myself with some extra time, the one thing that I could not find enough of just a month ago. I want to find the time to write more, but first some means of employment must make itself known. (I know this is something a lot of us struggle with; not only employment, but something meaningful to boot).
I find myself looking back at 2018, and it seemed to have flown by. I was working my awful job this time last year, but always on the look out for something else, and trying along the way, to quietly make that happen. I was able to find a couple of great volunteer gigs, and they have helped me immensely. Not only expand my horizons thru connections with other people, but give me some very much needed EXPERIENCE. Yes, that dreaded word for job seekers.
I also manged to take a long-awaited trip to Ireland with my family, and that was such a great time. Visiting the west coast of Ireland and getting to see family and friends was special, and I am lucky enough to have the opportunity to do so. It was a little too long, instead of 14 days it could have probably been 10, but I’ll take having those good memories and beautiful pictures any day.
Somehow I also managed to plan, and execute, my wedding, which was in the works for almost 2 years. It was such a great feeling to see it all come together, but like everything good and wonderful in this world, it was fleeting. I guess that’s why they say appreciate the good while it’s here. I was left with beautiful pictures, wonderful memories and a feeling of completeness even I do not have the words to explain.
If all that wasn’t enough, I decided I was done with that job that was going no where fast, that stressed me out and made me miserable. It turned me into a worried and depressed person, and I know that is not who I am. I got the courage, and now the financial stability through my husband, to leave it and strive after the goals I’ve always wanted. It was, and still is scary, because bills and school loans are always going to be looming, but I think I am finding the courage to confront them and take those realities in stride. The end of the year really sort of made me realize how far we can grow in 12 months. Take some time out of your busy life and see how far you’ve come. Even if it’s only a small growth, it still is meaningful and worth a “job well done, self.” (I have gotten quite experienced in doing this for myself and highly recommend telling yourself this often!)
Here’s to a prosperous and fun-filled 2019.
the sagacious bee 